Christmas 2017 is proving itself to be much different than any Christmas I’ve ever experienced before.
This year I’m buying more and asking for less. I didn’t necessarily plan it that way, that’s just how it happened.
For the first time in my life I finally understand that look in my parents eyes when they couldn’t afford to get us more extravagant things even when we didn’t ask for or expect them. This year, I’m the one with that look in my eyes. I had such grand and exciting plans for my family’s gifts this year, but in the end the money just wasn’t there.
I wanted giving gifts to my family to look something like this…
But upon buying their presents, I quickly realized it’s going to look more like this…
When asked what I wanted, I was at a loss for words. I scrambled to assemble a list and the end result looked more like a grocery list than a Christmas list. Socks, ponytail holders to replace all the ones I’ve lost this year (RIP) and bubble bath were among the few things I asked for. The look on my mom’s face while reading my list was one of confusion. I was confused, too. I’d never had an issue telling her what I wanted.
As lame and fabricated as it sounds, truthfully, I think I had so much trouble this year because the things I truly want aren’t material things.
More than anything, I want to see my boyfriend live his dream. I want each member of my family to be truly happy. I want quality time with my friends that have really become more like family to me. I can’t think of anything that would make me happier this Christmas than receiving those things.
As a child, I never understood why some adults didn’t make Christmas lists for themselves. When you’re that age, you only really see an opportunity to get those toys that your parents wouldn’t buy otherwise. Now, as I get older, I understand the other side of things more and more every year. As an adult, it’s not so much about material things as it is spiritual things. You don’t really care how much you have under the tree for yourself as long as there is something there for the people you love. You aren’t so concerned with the value of the things you receive, but the quality time you get with those you care about.
This year I’m asking for less and making more time for the people in my life. I encourage you to do the same. Over time we will forget the material things we’ve received, but we will never forget the laughs, the joy and the memories shared with the wonderful people in our lives.
Wishing you the merriest of Christmases.