It has come to my attention that a few of you noticed I haven’t been posting as many sobriety updates. Trust me, I understand that looks bad and I’m here to tell you exactly why you haven’t been seeing updates from me.
Tomorrow marks four months of sobriety for me. Yes, I still abstain from alcohol and honestly, I feel I’ve run out of things to say about it on a week-to-week basis. The last thing I want to do is say the same thing, worded differently, for fifty-two weeks. It doesn’t strike up passion in me and it doesn’t benefit you.
While my time regularly writing about sobriety has been eye-opening, I’m happy I won’t be writing about it as often. To me, it means I’ve won. It means I recognized I had a problem before it REALLY became a problem. I addressed the issue, I took action, and got unbelievable support from all of you. Thank you. You have no idea how much it means to me. Sure, I’m pretty strong-willed, but I know for a fact I couldn’t have done this without you. You gave me the encouragement to stop doubting myself and the confidence to enjoy a night out with friends, Sprite in hand.
My life without alcohol is beautiful. I’m more self-aware, prepared to face whatever life throws at me, and I experience life on a whole new level. I have peace. I have clarity. I don’t spend my days waiting for the weekend so I can tune everything out, only to end up sick and regretful.
While I still battle my anxiety and depression, I’m able to fight with a sound mind, knowing alcohol’s influence no longer hangs over my head. I vividly remember how terrible drinking made me feel mentally, emotionally, and physically. It’s kind of hard to miss that. Honestly, I really don’t think about alcohol at all unless I’m writing about it for the blog. I’ll be fine until I sit down and think, “Ok, how did alcohol affect my life recently…? I mean, I really wouldn’t mind having a drink. It was a rough week.” But I really don’t consider it until that moment. Even then, I don’t actually want to drink. I guess, as crazy as it sounds, I’ve just lost the desire for it.
If I ever decide to drink again, don’t worry, I’ll let you know. But as for now, I’m sticking to a coffee addiction and the regular updates are coming to an end. Although, I will be publishing some posts outlining advice I have for anyone that wants to live sober in the near future. If anyone has any questions for me regarding sobriety and my experience with it, I am MORE than happy to answer them to the best of my ability.
If you want to cut alcohol out of your life, I believe you can do it. I know it’s hard, I know it’s scary, but I also know your life is worth so much more than a bottle of booze. I know the darkness your facing and I can tell you with hope and joy in my heart, there is light on the other side of this tunnel. The best advice I could ever give you would be to pour that bottle down the drain and walk away. No one’s life ever got worse because they stopped drinking. Mine certainly didn’t.